Last night I was in bed reading and an older character in the book died and the scene is the viewing for this character. It made me really sad and have a bit of an anxiety attack about my grandparents. I've been thinking about them a lot and miss them terribly. Unfortunately I haven't been able to see them in a few months and I don't have time off to visit. My family is very close but not close on the map. My grandparents live about an eleven hour drive away. With this character in the book who died I start to think about my aging grandparents and how we never know how much time we have (I told you this post was sad). Another thing you should know about my grandparents is that when they are sick they don't tell anyone. In January I hugged my grandfather and he winced in pain and I asked what was wrong. Apparently he fell and hurt some ribs and had been going to rehab for it. I had no idea because for some reason in my family if someone is sick no tells anyone, they just keep it to themselves. It's very frustrating.
I'm 25 and single with no plans for a wedding anytime soon and I'm perfectly fine with that because I'm not in any rush and I like being solo but last night thinking about my grandparents I couldn't stop thinking about what they would miss. I don't know when I will get married or if I ever will want to get married. They might miss my wedding or me having children and it makes me really sad because I love them and want them to never leave me but that's not reality. So this morning I picked up the phone to call them and enjoyed a nice conversation with them. I told them I loved them and missed them dearly. I'm going to show them how much I love them for as long as I can and just live life to the fullest.
Sorry this post isn't really a happy or funny one but life has ups and downs and I thought I would share my feeling and thoughts with you since this is why I created this blog. Maybe I can help one of you realize that life is special and to live every moment of it.
My grandparents and I last year in Seattle.
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